Le 8 septembre 2016, 10:15 dans Humeurs • 0
Shall I run away? I wanna run away so bad. Oh god, please give me a chance to run away.
How many times have you said these words secretly? How many times did you want to run away from something so badly that it made you think you're a bad person?
Actually, thinking about leaving some things behind and running away doesn't make you a bad person, it only makes you a human being. And more than that, it explains how awfully hard it has been for you. You sit thinking why is it that you have to deal with all those painful things, why everytime you think you'll be doing fine another terrible things comes and forces you to face it. You wonder why your life has to be this hard while some people's isn't.
I don't really have an answer, I wonder about all those things too, but I know one thing, wanting to run away doesn't mean you're a coward, or childish, or irresponsible. While some people believe that wanting to hide away makes you a weak person, I actually believe that ,reaching that point where all you wanna do is leave, explains how truely strong you have been; how many times you thought you couldn't take it anymore but you did, how many times you survived the crap, how toughly you fought to keep things going on just alright...
And trust me, I know how confusing it feels; so wrong, but right at the same time. You shouldn't be running but you'd love to do so and then you know that if you do you're going to feel a huge relief but also a huge unbearable feeling of guilt and weakness.
I can't tell you whether you should run or no, but I can tell you that in whatever choice you want to make, remember that you're strong. You're a good man in a storm. You can make the right choice even if it's so complicated. And most important of all, you will be okay. YOU ARE GOING TO BE OKAY.